She thinks my blog post about Breaking Up With God is wrong.
"What if God reads it?" she asked.
Well, if God has to read my blog in order to find out that I was angry at him for sending me a year's worth of 'plagues' then I think we all have to rethink this whole religion thing and God's reach.
Somehow I have a feeling that God heard me when I was standing outside that one night looking up at the heavens and said "God, I've really had enough. You're not listening. You're mean to me. I can't take this anymore. I can't even talk to you anymore. Why should I believe in you? A relationship with you is pointless!"
As I stomped back inside I like to think that God got the point and He realized that this time I meant business. I was through with my relationship with Him.
I've taught Sunday school. I wore a Catholic school uniform long enough to learn how to make it look cool (Roll up the skirt. Black boots.). I've been in a long-term relationship with God and His whole family. I know all about God and I know that God heard me when I was outside under the stars ranting at Him.
However, I believe in a forgiving God. I know that He knows me well enough to just let me get angry about the hell (so to speak) that He kept sending me (or so I thought He was behind the whole thing.)
As my previous post said, I did some soul searching and a lot of thinking about our relationship. I missed Him when I stubbornly decided I would no longer talk to Him and I came to the conclusion that it wasn't Him, it was me. And He was a big enough guy to welcome me back.
But if He's reading my blog then I think I hit the mother lode of visitors. So, God, if you're reading this, thanks for making yesterday OK and if I could ask for one favor? Maybe a little sunshine please? And a baby would be really nice too.
(ps. to my friend who was looking out for God's feelings, I think we're good now and God says "Hi. You're welcome for that great guy you're dating. He's a keeper.")
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